I usually only give a title to a blog entry when I'm done writing but for this entry, I felt like I just wanted to pour out everything that has been going on in my life recently here hence the title: Stress (or not)? because I can't decide, for the life of me, whether I'm stressed out or not.
Read on, and you will know why I'm confused about the presence/absence of stress in my life right now. :P
Hmm, so many things to write about. Where should I begin?
Off the top of my mind, let me start with the Fundamental Science Congress 2010.
This Congress is organized by UPM's Faculty of Science and I received an e-mail from them about this event only after the registration deadline passed! And according to the e-mail, presentation during this Congress is COMPULSORY for all graduate students!! Dun believe me? I show you the e-mail:
Prof. Dr./Prof. Madya Dr./Dr./Tuan/Puan,
Pendaftaran di lanjutkan sehingga 14 Mac 2010 (Ahad)
dan hanya boleh dilakukan secara dalam talian (online)
Pendaftaran online di http://math.upm.edu.my/fsc2010
Senarai peserta di http://math.upm.edu.my/fsc2010 /senaraip.php
Yuran penyertaan
Bukan pelajar : RM 300
Pelajar : RM 200
Tambahan kertas kerja : RM 100/(kertas @ poster)
Pembentangan adalah wajib ke atas pelajar siswazah (Master dan PhD) dan
kepada pensyarah yang mempunyai gran penyelidikan. Sila maklumkan
kepada pelajar di bawah seliaan anda.
What the!...Somemore must pay RM 200!
Anyway, they extended the deadline to March 14, so I could still register. But what if they didn't!? If it's compulsory for me to present in this Congress, but I received the e-mail informing me about this Congress only AFTER the registration deadline, WHY BOTHER SENDING ME THE E-MAIL, right!? Ugh, UPM's so bloody inefficient and slow!
So I'm already registered to present orally in this Congress. I still have to prepare an extended abstract (a 2-page abstract) and submit by 31st March. I'm presenting my undergraduate FYP so I could use my thesis' abstract, right? NO. They have their own format for the extended abstract I need to submit! :(
More work...more work...Haih....
Then leh...let's move on to Item No. 2.
Which is...ah, my scholarship dilemma!
See, I'm a recipient of the government's 'bajet mini' scholarship for graduate students which only pays for my tuition fees directly to UPM every semester. No monthly allowance or any other form of allowance is provided by this scholarship.
On the other hand, UPM offers a scholarship called GRF (Graduate Research Fellowship) for graduate students which subsidizes the tuition fees and provides monthly allowance. The application for the GRF opens before each semester starts and I will only get to know the outcome of my application AFTER the semester begins. Which means that I will have to pay that particular semester's fees first. I missed the last application so I plan to apply for the upcoming one.
But if I'm already on another scholarship (the 'mini bajet' one), will they even consider to approve my GRF application? I don't dare cancel my current scholarship because of the uncertainty of my GRF application being approved. But if I don't cancel it, what are my chances of getting the GRF?
Oh, the dilemma!
Item No. 3 now...Errr, my experiments at uni.
This is an ongoing thing. It's keeping me very busy. There's so much to do in the lab...so much to read too, to prepare for my experiment. Haih...Read this, read that. Somemore not only read, must understand and extract information from all those articles and theses....@_@
Item No. 4. Tuition.
Right, I'm giving tuition from Mon to Thur night. Currently, my daily schedule's something like this:
7.30 a.m. - Wake up
8.20 a.m. - Go uni
10.00 a.m. - Reach uni
5.30 p.m. - Go back
7.00 p.m. - Reach home
8.20 p.m. - Give tuition
10.40 p.m. - Reach home from tuition
11.30 p.m. - SLEEP.
I barely have time to do other things. When am I gonna read all those journal articles I have to? :(
STRESSED WEI!
But, actually, if I manage my time well, cut down on my leisure time, I will have enough time to do all these....
So it all boils down to time management and giving up my 'relax time'.
BUT I NEED TO RELAX LA...
:) i'm actually not that stressed. just lazy...